[Lotte]

I suffer from both depression and severe panic attacks, that are brought on by crowds, kind of like the ones you'd find on a metro train in melb, that was fun to deal with when I was at uni in the city :S

Still dealing with them, mine tends to be stress related, and seeing as I'm a person that can't say "no" when asked for help, and I work fulltime and I'm doing my final year of uni, I'm pretty much medicated till I graduate. It seems weird to be in this position, until I got into one of *those* relationships, I was the most confident out there person in town, now I spend half my time in a book hiding from reality because I can't deal with it.

on top of that, being part of the uni race team, I had to explain my situation to various key team members (mostly people that design the car), and now they tread on eggshells around me, which is exactly what I dont want!